I just had this awful dream that Billy Mays died yesterday.
^is what I'd like to say.

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It was the sixth. I remembered it, but didn't post a journal. *sob* (Yes, he gets two dates. His birthday and 6/6. Why? Idk, them Japanese artist chicks on those websites think he's just that badass. And so do I. <3) I've done so much scribbling recently, but I just can't bring myself to post it.(ﾟﾛﾟ ) Dunno why.

Summer vacation started Thursday for me. I kinda didn't want school to end. I have nothing to do now! xD How's your break going along so far?

I don't want to be fifteen, but I am now. I just ate an orange Starburst that was exactly a year old. It was supposed to be really hard, but for some odd reason it was soft. I'm glad it is raining. It often rains on my birthday. I had my friends over for a sleepover yesterday and we watched my two favoritest movies. They gave me amazing gifts. But hm, I don't really get why birthdays are a big deal at all. No matter what I do I feel as if I'm maybe wasting my time doing things. I so wish I had time hax.

There is a Renaissance fair next week, and I'm excited about that. What are you looking forward to?

I can't remember my old Runescape username *tear* D:.

... I won't grow up, I won't. *sob*

Spring breaaaak. I'm kind of lonely, actually. No friends around. John's all grumpy in his room, and mom went to a big luncheon thing, which is fine, I guess. She's been in a irritable mood anyway. But I'm glad for the break. I never ache to be around people and I enjoy my solitude. Watching movies all day is fun.

It's been rainy, which is nice. I sneaked into Mr. McGregor's garden my neighbor George's yard when it was starting to rain on Tuesday and picked lots of pretty wild flower/weed things. I pressed them in a dictionary. C: I find it really odd. It's like I'm regressing back into the little kid I used to be. I'm starting to get the urge to wear Easter dresses everyday, and it seems that all the movies I get from the library are the ones I've always loved. I'm almost fifteen, and I really, really don't want to grow up, haha.

Tuesday I watched Pollyanna, and today I just watched Little Nemo: Adventures In Slumberland. Geez, I love (and have loved) that movie. So much.

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So, who wants cake?

Stolen from:

101 TRUTHS: Begin

001. Name - Your mom.
002. Nickname - Karuh-Pearuh calls me Meggie-Muffin.
003. Status - Single, and no objection to it.
004. Zodiac sign - Woof.
005. Male or female - Feman.
006. Elementary - Skyridge. -w-
007. High School - Still in 9th grade here, and taking it slow.
008. College – Planning on it.
009. Smart – Not particularly. Well, it's not so much that I'm smart, it's just a lot of people around me are dumb.
010. Hair color – Gold-y blond.
011. Long or short – Long.
012. Loud or Quiet - Depends on the people I'm around.
013. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera – Camera; it's on my Christmas list.
015. Health freak – Yeah, I'm pretty much heading that way right now.
016. Drink or Smoke? – No.
017. Do you have a crush on someone? – ...no fku.
018. Eating or Drinking - Which is better? I dunno.
019. Piercings – Two on each ear, hopefully more soon :7.
20. Tattoos – Naw.
21. Obsessions - Rolo?<3
22. Chocolate or Vanilla - Vanilla, but sometimes chocolate if I'm feeling dangerous.

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing – It was my 6th birthday.
024. First best friend – In kindergarten. Emily, Riccie, Christina...
025. First award – The silly ones they give out in school.
026. First crush – My first ones were all TV characters. xD
027. First pet – Buddy? But tecnically he wasn't mine, he was my dads. My three, tiny fish. Bucky, Twin, and Twinny. (wtf names)
028. First big vacation – Hawaii?
029. First major accident - In fifth grade when I sprained my foot.
030. First big birthday – Third grade?

HATE:

031. Bras.
032. Dishonesty.
033. Makeup.
034. When people tell others they are closed-minded; the accuser is always closed-mined themselves. Way to call the kettle black, you pot.
035. When it feels like something is so empty; Spiritual emptiness.
036. How people are so obsessed with sexuality and sexual things. They make it seem like real love is always conditional, or doesn't even exist at all.
037. When people feel more compassion for abandoned animals than they do for abandoned children.
038. Abortion and other unnatural things. I also hate it when people moan about how cutting down trees is bad, and how having babies is bad, and how eating meat is bad. Hullo, humans = natural predators (no one seems to care when any other predator eats another animal), mammals (what other animal gets their children surgically removed because they're inconvenient?), and consumers (they basically say we don't deserve a habitat [among other things] just because we are smarter than other mammals. Hell, looking around, we might be just stupider. We're certainly more bitchy). People just can't seem to embrace our gritty, natural purpose, let alone our meaning-filled spiritual one. *gets off soap box and sighs wistfully*
039. Wickedness and annoying things in general.

LOVE:

040. To smile and laugh.
041. Hugs and (chaste) intimacy.
042. Exercise & rest.
043. Food & drink.
044. Children and other good company.
045. Rolo, and other intriguing fictional things.
046. Rain and other pleasing sounds, sights, and feelings.
047. God, virginity, & wholeness.
048. The simple things.

CURRENTLY...

049. Eating – Nothing.
050. Drinking – Nothing. *gets up and gets water*
051. Just Noticed - How dad likes watching golf is silly.
052. I'm about to – Take a drink of water.
053. Listening to – Golf.
054. Plans for today – Hm, Sunday. Charch, and practice violin, and read books.
055. Wearing - My blue jammies with snow globes on them. -3-
056. Finished - Nothing quite yet. Today just started.
057. Need - Tea.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? – Yes.
059. Want to get married? – Yes.
060. Careers – Cook, arteest, and story scribbler.

THINGS THAT MAKE YOU UNIQUE:

061. That I refuse to shave my legs.
062. That I refuse to do any unnecessary things that waste time and don't benefit me or anyone else in the least. (Like doing makeup, leg shaving, hair killing. Hygiene is the key, not cosmetic uselessness.)
063. My long hair and nails, maybe? Are eye greens unique?
064. My thoughts are all in purple-prose-ish speech. xD
065. I think long an hard about things. It's rare that I find any subject dismissible. I tend to be very skeptic and over think things. But actually, that probably isn't very unique.
067. I have a child's heart, in a sense. But, again, many people are probably that way too.

WHICH IS BETTER FOR A BOY/GIRLFRIEND?

068. Lips or eyes - Eyes, I suppose.
069. Fat or Skinny - Thin.
070. Shorter or taller? – Taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous – When are guys romantic? D:
073. Nice stomach or nice arms – Hehh, um. I can't decide.
074. Sensitive or loud – What does "loud" pertain to in this context exactly? Insensitive?
075. Hook-up or relationship - Long-term, of course.
076. Quiet or Loud - I'd like a guy that's easily excitable and that I can have fun and be a kid with. Loud, maybe?
077. Troublemaker or hesitant – Er, not a danger-whore, but I don't want him to be a stick in the mud either. Then I'd just feel stupid.

HAVE YOU EVER...

078. Gotten locked inside a store - No, but that would be hilarious.
079. Lost your keys - Yeah, my house key, then I found it.
080. Lost glasses/contacts – I seem to lose a lot of sunglasses.
081. Ran away from home – Attempted twice.
082. Gotten Screened in an Airport - Screened? Is that extra than just the normal airport procedure?
083. Been Attacked - Not physically... exactly.
084. Broken someone's heart – I couldn't do that even if I had the power to.
085. Been arrested – Nope.
086. Had a near-death experience - Don't think so. Maybe when I tripped all the way down the stairs and almost hit my head real hard. Luckily, my math book saved me.
087. Cried when someone died – I've never had someone so close to me pass.
088. Had a major injury - Only a sprain. It hurt. ):

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

089. Yourself – Nope.
090. Miracles - Yes.
091. Love at first sight – Nope. Real love comes to you slowly, only through a strong friendship. Lust is not love.
092. Heaven – Yes.
093. Santa Claus – Nawww, never did. (;
094. Sex on the first date - NO WAY.
095. Kiss on the first date – Naw, I don't think so.
096. Chupacabra - YESSSSSSSSSS

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? – I kinda miss my ma right now. She's on a short trip. And others. <3
098. Are you really happy with where you are in life? – Yes.
099. Do you believe in God – Yes, in fact, there is no such thing as an atheist on this earth. All true atheists have committed suicide, showing us that they truly had no fear of an afterlife, and let us know that they really did believe everything on this earth is for no reason, just a slip-up of mindless nature. Ones who proclaim to be atheists are simply proud and cowardice agnostics who hide behind the guise of confidence, when they are truly the most confused.
100. Can you sing? - Nope, not well at all.
101. Do yo think people will actually read this? - Maybe a few.